Thursday, 26 November 2009

A nervous smile. A new beginning.

I don't know why I'm writing this. I honestly don't.

I had pretty much given up on the whole blogging thing, simply because too much has happened. When I read my last post and think about all that I have to say, the prospect of trying to pick up where I left off proves too daunting.

I'm not the same person I was when I started this blog. A lot has changed. A lot has stayed the same. Some things I didn't expect. Others that I took for granted never really happened.
There have been ups and downs. Some people have faded out of my life as quickly as they stormed into it. Others have set up camp and don't seem to have any intention of leaving any time soon. I'm feeding them Cinnabons as an incentive to stay. I like these new co-stars in my life.

My relationship with God has been a rollercoaster ride. Soul Survivor changed my outlook on life, but the high's wearing off and I need to recharge, to reconnect. But I know that He's always going to be there, waiting for me to remember that He's the only source of power I'll ever need.

Christmas is almost upon us. I can almost hear those disgustingly cheesy Christmas songs screeching at me from every angle. Matt: I know you love that stuff. I can see the glee on your face as you read this. Don't get me wrong: I love Christmas. I love LOVE love Christmas. The mere thought of all the baking I intend to bang out is enough to send me into a sugar-induced coma. I love everything about Christmas. The mass at uni. Giving presents. Being with the people I love most. Remembering the awesome love that was born into this world some 2000 years ago. But Christmas this year brings with it the end of all that I've taken for granted these past 5 years.

I graduate next year. Me. A graduate. Meaning I need to start thinking about the rest of my life. Scary stuff. Fracking exciting scary stuff. I can't wait. When I think of everything I went through this past year, and the person I've become because of it, there's only one thing left to say:

Bring.

It.

On.

3 comments:

Matt said...

you are so dramatic :P

I started smiling at the mention of the cinnabons XD And the reference to me was freaky, my face was literally GLOWING when you mentioned the christmas songs... *sigh* i can already picture the plaza and valletta... the lights... the music... :)

Matti said...

And I have a certain distaste for Christmas that I wouldn't dare rub off on anyone else.

Maybe I'll start liking it again when (if) I get married and have my own kids. Maybe then it will bring joy to me.

Until then, no, although it's a special feast, I wish I could share the joy in it that most other people find. The only positives I've been taking in this regard for the last eight years is that it's a break from school or University.

Sorry.

/out

karla said...

im offended i never got a cinnamon bun...granted i cant hv atm but still? did van smoosh u for me ^^? i hoep she did..here have another...*smoosh*
ok so u made me excited for u XD and and...omc! ur graduating >< this is insane!
i think i love the person you're becoming cos she has jesus in her and hey..thats d most imp. part =)
*love*
Kai